the purefinder - archives - Fri, 2004-07-09
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in leaf
I enliven my days with consideration of the symbolic potential of the world in which my life is lived.
When the fourteen-year-old me discovered photography - and my love for photography, I moved through my world, with or without my camera, framing shots, controlling what I wanted to be in sharp focus and clicking my imaginary shutter as lines and curves and textures and shades and colours arranged themselves to my satisfaction or excitement.
As I have aged, my life has developed from a gallery of personal visual delight into the film of me that will not be made. I wander about considering the world and my life and my internal dialogue and autobiographical contemplation have become the narrative of this film that will not be made.
Today's scene features a tall man in his late thirties, returning from school, where he has deposited his children; he observes the abundant leafy debris torn from the trees by a recent storm. This man considers how we consider our summer storms to bear a special character of threat; the trees amongst which we live are in leaf and burdened and vulnerable. He remembers a conversation of two days previously where he confessed himself to feel more intimidated by the prospect of returning to college in September then he had done previously or had expected - he admitted that his wife's illness, and treatment, had left him feeling burdened and vulnerable.
Posted by padraig at July 9, 2004 09:56 AM